Monthly Archives: March 2004

A litmus test for sanity evolution

I got tattooed this afternoon. A good experience as always. We capped off my shoulder with a sort of mystic circus tent thing that I may post a quick pick of tomorrow, and did some chatting about an enormous new project… My cute little heartbreaker (I wanna take you home) gave me a ride there because I was running late, but I took transit back. I genuinely enjoy taking transit, especially during rush hours. But let me rewind twenty or so years first.

When I was a kid I had three or four recurring dreams/nightmares, which also reflected themselves in my waking life in terms of my belief structures and how I interacted with the world around me. One of the underlying themes of one of the recurring dream was surveillance — the knowledge that I was always being watched. As a child, I called these beings just “the watchers” (ooh, creative). I don't know where they were supposed to live; the vision's cosmology was not revealed to me other than the notion that water played a role in the gateway to their “universe” (or wherever they were from) — both the lake in front of my house and a local swimming pool acted as gateways in my dreams.

Anyway, their “job” was just to watch people. I suppose it's a reflection on my own narcissism that I'd conjure something like that up (ie. I'm so special that magical beings come and watch me, ha!). In any case, the idea of watching people I guess stuck on me, so I do that… I really like watching people think and listening to what they're feeling, not so much in a “fun” sense, but more in a “that's fascinating” sense, like birdwatching or something. So to get back to my story, I'm sitting on the subway and a fairly tall attractive girl sits down across from me. I was more watching three old women (unrelated) who I'm pretty sure were reptilian beings, but I decided to explore this new person for a while instead.

It was strange because as the ride continued (she stayed on for about five or six subway stops I think) she just kept getting sadder and sadder. Some people get upset when you listen to them, but I don't think this was anything like that. But wow, talk about emotional pain, it was very very sad. I never quite know what to do in a situation like that — I don't think it's appropriate to say anything, I mean, what sort of insane-sounding come-on would that be like, “hey, I was just listening to your emotions and I wanted to let you know that it's ok, you'll be alright, and you really need to stop beating yourself up over this stuff“?

Yeah, way to get hit with the pepper spray and then sent to the loony bin.

In any case, when they got off the subway I realized it was an ex that I didn't recognize until then (so perhaps this story is more about what a callous ass I am). Of course, part of me thinks I superimposed the “recognition” afterwards, but we're all part of a giant biological communications mesh network, so perhaps it's irrelevant. While some would argue that it's a good reason not to let men write stories involving women, I really believe the Lucifer's claim to Jesus in The Last Temptation of Christ that “all women are the same woman, just with different faces.” But to be clear, I believe that about men as well.

I don't think I'm unique in this idea. I also want to be real clear that I think supernatural explanations are bunk. Nothing I believe about the universe requires a supernatural explanation in my opinion, and if it does then it's probably a flawed notion. But imagine if people are web servers, and the energy that connects us all are data conduits (and you can have ley lines be the internet backbones if you want). Thus once someone is “online”, you can use any point on the net to talk to them.

The question is, are you online?

PS. My grandmother just died (age 86; a long life of boozing and smoking kept her alive so long). I hadn't seen her in 10 years, but from what I know it was probably a good thing on the whole. Still, it's too bad people don't live longer.

"I'm" on Slashdot

Pointless trivia entry, really.

Anyway, that's the source of my name if you didn't know… Making it somewhat ironic that I ended up as a telecommunications specialist! Dunno what I'm talking about? Here's an excerpt:

In 1948, Claude Shannon, then a young engineer working at Bell Telephone Laboratories in Murray Hill, N.J., published a landmark paper titled “A Mathematical Theory of Communication.”

In that paper, Shannon defined what the once fuzzy concept of “information” meant for communications engineers and proposed a precise way to quantify it: in his theory, the fundamental unit of information is the bit.

Shannon showed that every communications channel has a maximum rate for reliable data transmission, which he called the channel capacity, measured in bits per second. He demonstrated that by using certain coding schemes, you could transmit data up to the channel's full capacity, virtually free of errorsan astonishing result that surprised engineers at the time.

From space probes to cellphones and CD players, Shannon's ideas are invisibly embedded in the digital technologies that make our lives more interesting and comfortable. A tinkerer, juggling enthusiast, and exceptional chess player, Shannon was also famous for riding the halls of Bell Labs on a unicycle. He died on 24 February 2001, at age 84, after a long battle with Alzheimer's disease.

Anyway, I know I've mentioned him here before, but he's an interesting character. Along those lines, seven years before I was born my father wrote a book called Temporal Sampling of Signals with Band-Limited Spectrum based in part on Shannon's work on communication in the presence of noise…

Silicone

There are a few hardcore body modification subcultures that are not well represented on BME, I think because they're drawn to mods maybe for different reasons and have little interest in anything other than their own mod subset (and thus don't discover BME). Anyway, Marco (he was on IAM but I don't think he is currently) that runs Extremecock and the Large Penis Support Group had the picture to the right on his own personal site.

If it's not obvious, the mod is extreme silicone injection — I'd say Walter (pictured) has had over a liter of silicone injected into his penis alone, which is a truly massive amount (his is one of the biggest I've seen). These are done usually by doctors in Mexico, but there are also US-based groups doing it both with silicone and hydrogel (which I've really got to get around to placing an order for). Anyway, I have a smaller gallery of this on BME in the implant section, but if you're intersted in it, Marco's sites have a lot more info on it than BME.

And I think that's the first time I've ever said that!

Funny story…

So I'm over at my dealer's place, and I'm explaining bank security systems to them, and they start pointing at the wall and saying stuff like “what are you talking about? who are you?”Oh wait, that's the wrong story. Anyway, I've been doing a lot more video capturing (of the footage that Badur* and Anomis shot) for the movie, and it's really been wonderful seeing everyone in the clips, and getting such a personal view at life across America.

I just wanted to say though that even if the movie flops and I lose every cent that I've sunk into it (which I expect, the money losing part that is, not the flopping part), that it really means a lot to me personally that so many people shared their lives so intimately in this project. Thank you.

I don't really have the right words to convey what I mean, but you guys did something really wonderful and I hope I can repay you for it by doing a good job assembling and producing it. Thank you.


* Why is it that whenever I go to type “Badur”, my fingers instinctually type “Badura”. I don't know if it's a feminization of the name, or if it's ultra-manly in some sort of “Bagheera” sense? I'll give the typo the benefit of the doubt and put Badur into the ultra-manly category (I hope that's not a Freudian slip of just having watched a cold-hand aborted mission).

New article

Thanks to The Lizardman for his latest article:


Tattooed People Onstage:
From Exhibitions to Entertainers.
PART I

“The love of beauty in its multiple forms is the noblest gift of the human cerebrum.”
- Alexis Carrel

The modern Western perception of tattooing has been indelibly marked by its cultural association with the sideshow and its historical predecessor the traveling exhibit. Tattooing as an art form cut its teeth and developed in the West in great part due to the desire for and profit to be had by exhibiting tattooed people. At many circuses and carnivals one could not only see a tattooed marvel but also receive a permanent souvenir from the traveling tattoo artist on the lot. For years, tattoo artists commonly spent most of their time on the road with such shows, possibly also serving as its banner painter, and then wintering at a street shop location. A great example of such an artist, and an inspirational tale in its own right, is Stoney St. Clair whose life and work was documented in what is often considered a seminal work in the history of tattooing: Stoney Knows How (BOOK, VHS).


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Why democracy is bullshit

Democracy is one of the biggest lies of the modern world. While it probably is a good tool for organizing local poltics, it is one of the worst, most unfair governmental systems out there, and it simply does not work, even in a best case scenario. Here's why, in simple terms:

  1. The average person will make decisions that are in the best interests of themselves and people they feel kinship with. This is a basic biological response and hard to overcome.
  2. The average person will vote for things that help them, and will vote against things that help strangers, especially if they perceive it will take resources away from them or their kin.

I belive that the above premises are true. It's not that people are fundamentally bad or anything like that, it's that they're fundamentally selfish — which is normal and healthy. All animals know to protect themselves and their kin against outsiders. It's basic instinct. It's why people are afraid of different races, gays, tattooed people, the handicapped, and so on.

Now, let's look at what a democracy does, at its core:

  1. A democracy allows the majority to select a ruler. By definition, it will not allow the minority to select a ruler because they don't have enough votes.

So to be clear, a democracy is the ultimate political system for suppressing minority groups and ideas. This is why it's so hard for a democracy to grant gay rights, tattoo rights, or change the status quo in any way. The only way that a democracy can help minorities is when they subvert it with massive media actions that basically “trick” the mainstream into supporting them.

Bank security

Since it's been something like 11 years since I've actively been involved in breaking this type of security, I don't think anything I say can be used against me. To be very clear — I have little interest in personally robbing banks or committing wire fraud at this point in my life. I do however have a great deal of interest in the security arrangements banks make to take care of my assets. So here are some comments from my afternoon at the bank.

My bank has just upgraded their computers to some new “paperless” (minus the thousands of brochures promoting it of course) system. As anyone who's spent much time in a bank can tell you, the more paperless a system is, the more scraps of paper are needed to write down account numbers to take from terminal to terminal. Because of this, the bank has set up an “accessory” terminal that all the tellers can use when they need to look up account details.

It's got an LCD screen which shows its results in nice, easy to read 24 point Arial which any monkey can write down from across the room. That's right Ezzat Si Kavali, not only do I know your name and account number and secret phrase, I also know your PIN number since you had to type it in a dozen times while saying it out loud*. Anyway, point is that these terminals should be facing the tellers and AWAY from the customers, not plainly visible to anyone in the bank.

For those of you who talked to me about this in RI, I present to you the following snippet:

Me: I have sort of an odd question.
Bank: OK, what is it?
Me: When someone puts stuff into their bank deposit box, do you search it?
Bank: No.
Me: Well what if they put in an icecream cone in and it dripped onto the stuff in the box below?
Bank: We just have to trust that our customers are honest and wouldn't do anything like that. One person who was mad at us put a fish in their box, that was terrible.
Me: Really? What did you do?
Bank: I don't know… it wasn't at this branch, but I heard it was terrible.
Me: Could they just search all the boxes?
Bank: I don't think so.
Me: Wow. Well, I hope no one puts a bomb in one of the boxes.

When I have more time I'll explain the whole thing (a truly “foolproof” way to hit a bank for about $4,000,000 and not get caught) here, unless I already did and am just forgetting doing so. Actually, who am I kidding? If I already explained it, it increases my chances of repeating the explanation if past trends hold true.


* Ezzat was having trouble because he remembered his PIN number by the “letters” (ie. 2=ABC, 3=DEF, etc.), which is problematic because Moneris (who my bank uses for its card hardware) uses a proprietary lettering scheme, so his PIN didn't match up like it should.