A big entry with lots of pictures (minimal soap)

The weekend was brutal, suicidally difficult waking up at three in the morning in agony. In those moments I’m very happy for the wonderful life I’ve had, but I really feel like I’ve had enough of it and I would be thankful for the pain to end with the last beat of my heart and my last breath. If that ever does happen, please don’t think of it as anything other than succumbing to the illness. Having been down that self-inflicted road in my youth, it’s a road that would bring me shame to travel. Anyway, after predictably unsatisfactory doctor visits and discussions at the start of the week, things got better though and the glass is feeling half full again. Tomorrow begins at the hospital, I think because my latest blood-work has caused some alarm that I’m still waiting to have explained to me. At least my appointment is first thing in the morning, which I’m keeping my fingers crossed means I’m first in line and will also be first out the door. Oh and because I haven’t been feeling too hot I haven’t been answering my phone (let alone emails or facebooks), so if it feels like I’m ignoring you, please accept my apologies and I promise it’s nothing personal!

But I’m rambling now, and not about anything that I or you should waste your time on.

Anyway, I do have lots of fun stuff too, but I’m going to write it quick and sloppy so I hope it makes sense. Let me begin with a duct tape and toilet paper roll elephant that Nefarious and I made. She did most of it and then I touched it up a little as she worked on the next one, a giraffe. So I’m going to blog all this while watching a couple episodes of Jersey Shore and muttering “what a piece of shit”, usually at Mike (“the Situation”), over and over. Click through to continue with the whole mess.

Here’s another view of the elephant. I like how it turned out.

After starting with a little eruption of whining, here’s one of the good things about having a cane thanks to my slow decay into decripitude and criplledom or whatever. Nefarious and a park friend had lots of fun using it to swing around on the little zip-line-esque thing. This was much easier (and a better game) than climbing up on a wobbly and diagonally cut log fragment.

On the way to getting her at school that day I snapped a picture of what I see multiple times every single day, someone texting while driving. I took the snap at the [red] traffic lights but watched as she continued doing it as the light changed green. To make matters worse, school had just gotten out, and there was construction, and traffic was slow and heavy with plenty of jaywalkers dashing between cars. It really bothers me, and I really do see it every single day.

I got some nice mail this week as well, including a set of $5 random shirts from TeeFury (since they’re one of these “shirt of the day” sites that never sells shirts after the first 24 hours, this is the easiest way for them to get rid of old stock without breaking their own rules too overtly) and I think I scored with what they picked for me. I also got a cool present that I pre-ordered for my friend Saira’s baby something like six months ago, a Cthulhu plush. The quality isn’t the greatest but it’s pretty cool nonetheless. Speaking of soft stuff, I saw an Olivia (the pig) doll today at the mall and instantly thought of Caitlin because, if I remember right anyway, the first book that Caitlin got Nefarious was Olivia [Saves the Circus]. It’s super cute, and right now she’s knitting all sorts of awesome little costumes for it.

I couldn’t get through this illness without Caitlin and Nefarious. They both make me so happy.

Speaking of mail, the smell of a small mountain of soap filling a quarter of our dining table was driving Caitlin bonkers, so yesterday I vacuum bagged it all both to stifle the smell, and to protect and prepare it for shipping. The embarrassing thing is that I can’t really remember what all the mixes were so my labels are general and possibly not entirely accurate. I’m not sure how I’m going to get rid of them. “Make me an offer”? It’s not really fair to charge much for these so I think I’ll just give this set to friends.

I’m working on a master for a new soap as well, and it will be my first 3D soap (so a two part mold) and I’ve been spending a lot of time sculpting and carving it. I’ve been experimenting a lot with different techniques, mixing different glazes, using different glues, carving and machining it after curing it, and so on. Some of the experiments have been successful, and some have set me back quite a bit, but as I need to emphasize, I’m a total new-comer and totally don’t know what I’m doing, so all this is a learning venture!

I’ve actually been doing lots of [mostly craft] experiments, including attempting to make a mold out of Goop (a general automotive glue that’s sort of a hard rubber cement, in the first two photos) and casting toys in my molds out of silicone caulking agent left over from when we fixed up our kitchen (the last two pictures). I’m not sure yet how well either of these experiments are going to work let alone how long they’ll take to cure (a few days at least I’m guessing), but my money is on “success”. If it works, I’ll post about that shortly, but if this is the last you hear of it, probably not. I had a failed experiment today in an attempt to make sugar-based hard candy lollipops, and I’m also curing a different glue-in-the-mold experiment that I’m pretty sure won’t work.

(As I said, above is Goop, below is caulk.)

Anyway, this terrible reality show is over so I think we’re going to go watch something more worthwhile, and maybe have a late night snack of my current favorite yummies, grated carrots.

Night, all.


  1. it always breaks my heart to read the posts about your illness. I don’t read the comments on your blog too much, because there are so many, but I assume there have been many others telling you how much you’ve meant to the community, and how much you mean to people personally. add my voice to the chorus.

    thanks again for everything, glider.

    Thursday, October 21, 2010 at 8:38 pm | Permalink
  2. Tim wrote:

    Agree 100% with Collette.

    Also the caring lady texting while driving… how stupid can people be? Well, apart from the regular crop of idiots with a cigarette in one hand, cellphone tucked precariously under the chin, and another on the wheel… I’ve witnessed a guy shaving while driving his kids to school, the lady cop applying lipstick while waiting in a traffic jam, the SUV owner who lets his daughter stand with her head out of the sunroof while driving along…

    I don’t much mind if the idiots self-destruct but why the hell should they endanger anyone else – particularly their own kids… Sigh… rant over. Hope the doc’s appt brings some useful news.

    Take it easy.

    Thursday, October 21, 2010 at 9:49 pm | Permalink
  3. beardyface wrote:

    Just a random thought, but I remember you saying a few posts back that you had had some trouble with air bubbles in soap molds. I remember a sculptor in school that used a stripped down electric toothbrush to vibrate out air. Might be worth a try

    Thursday, October 21, 2010 at 9:51 pm | Permalink
  4. I hope they find you some relief Shannon. Keep your chin up and I am sure some sort of solution will be headed your way soon.

    Thursday, October 21, 2010 at 9:58 pm | Permalink
  5. DON wrote:

    I see people every day, too, illegally using a mobile phone while driving. Thing is, the risk of actually being caught doing it is so small that people just aren’t bothered.

    There was a website at one time where you could “name and shame” by posting the offending registration number along with the date/time and location, but I don’t know what happened to it.

    Friday, October 22, 2010 at 6:25 am | Permalink
  6. starbadger wrote:

    Don – name and shame
    is just a few steps from
    our kids ratting us out
    for the greater good goody

    Friday, October 22, 2010 at 11:47 am | Permalink
  7. Elizabeth wrote:

    The elephant turned out excellent. :)

    On the illness mystery, thanks to my attempts at solving the mystery telescopically and off the internet as well as even more esoteric sources, I found the scariest, strangest illness that actually went much, much further thanmy MOST paranoid fantasies, morgellons. Associated with lyme disease, MS and other autoimmune disorders, it appears to be related to our consumption of genetically modified food among far scarier lines of reason and reality.
    There are huge holes in the fabric of reality; maybe it’s only a version of increased clarity.
    Have a beautiful day with your girls. Get your PH balanced (for SO many reasons) and get a damn food processor for the carrots, eh?

    Friday, October 22, 2010 at 12:28 pm | Permalink
  8. Gillian wrote:

    My heart breaks for you, and I still urge you to go to a Naturopath, just for the hell of it. Just try something different, something unconventional. It can’t do any harm!

    Friday, October 22, 2010 at 1:02 pm | Permalink
  9. Courtney wrote:

    I can’t wait to see how the new mold turns out and I would love to take some of the soaps you have off your hands if you’d like :o)

    Friday, October 22, 2010 at 9:43 pm | Permalink
  10. kumquat wrote:

    i’m so happy to read that you finally have a diagnosis.
    as someone who has the also a case of chronic pain, and no diagnosis, i can imagine it would feel good.

    that elephant is quite awesome.
    i love the crafts that you get up to.

    on that note, i would be absolutely willing to have zentastic soap in my life.
    and i’d really love to get a zentastic candle from you, even though not a fan of candles- it would be my emergency candle.
    for power outages/zombie apocalypse and whatnot.

    i’m going to finish with a, yes, i’ve never met you- but you have done so much to enrich my life that i cannot help but love and respect you.

    Friday, October 22, 2010 at 11:51 pm | Permalink
Wow Shannon, that's really annoying! What is it, 1997 on Geocities? Retroweb is NOT cool!

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